Sunday, January 11, 2009
Stay strong!
After looking at the medical report, i know my time with her is getting short. I regretted for not treasuring every moment we had in the past, and now, while losing her slowly, i finally realise how much she meant to me, and how much she wants to be accompanied, be loved. For now, i have nothing to wish for but her recovery. Nothing seems to be more worth, more important than health. Watching her sitting down or getting out of the bed makes my heart break, because every single movement is causing her so much pain. I've never felt so helpless before. How i wish i could help her share the agony. While hoping for a miracle and preparing for the worst, i want to spend every single moment with her, love her and make her happy. I will keep her in my prayer as my daily chore. Stay strong mum! Miracles will happen! And even if the condition gets worse, I'll learn to accept it. I do not fear death. It's part of the life cycle and everybody will have to go through it. What I do fear is I have not been giving her enough love, as her son.